Love U

I never felt a love
Like this before
It's a love like no other
Something I have always hoped for

A love that is beautiful
From the inside out
A love with no tears,
Pain, or doubt

A love with soul
So tender and true
A love that I have found
Only in you...

Chub, I love you...Only you

Untitled : For Chub

Whenever things happen,
Whenever things crop up,
Whenever I made you angry,
All I would say is, I'm sorry.

Whenever we argued,
Whenever we are frustrated,
Whenever you lose your temper,
There's only one thing, that matters.

I'm scared,
Whenever you are angry with me.
I burst out in tears,
I go, on an eating spree.

I remember the day you said to me,
How useless I could get.
I admit it's true,
I feel I'm a spoilt brat.

I remembered how we first met,
& the days that followed through.
I remembered how it was like
To be in love with you.

I recalled the night I stayed up,
Just hoping to hear you say,
That it's been raining all week,
That you wouldn't go on the climbing trip.

I'm not the type,
Who would express my feelings outright,
I tend to bottle things up,
But I shall not do so, tonight.

All I wanna say, is
I Love You :- Chub
More than I actually realise

You are like a bulb,
Who lits up my life, (like a light in the tunnel)
Who opens my life to more of the world,
To looking at things, from a funnel.

So, I wanna thank you, Chub
For coming into my life.
Each time that I said I'm sorry,
I mean it.

I really do.

Good Night!

All I Wanna

I wanna cry
But no tears came

I tried to smile
But it seems too lame

I wanna speak
But there's no sound

I wanna scream
But my voice could not be found

I wanna jump
But i lack the energy

I wanna walk
But i can't seem to master it

There is confusion
I seem to ignore it all

The chaos and war
I tried to break the fall

The cries around me
I dun seem to have heard

The pain that follows
Together with hurt

I Must (Version 2)

I have tears I could not cry
I tell myself I must be strong

I have problems I cannot hide
I tell myself I must go on

I look into the mirror
the image long gone

I stared at the air
looking more forlorn

I breathe in the air
the air is stale

I saw the trees stripped bare
I saw the grasses growing frail

I saw that the sky is blue no more
but dark and gloomy clouds covered them all

I saw the droplets splashing down
I saw how the shadows frown

I wonder when will daylight ever arrive?
Or have I actually gone blind?

Lost

I stare at the pc
I look at the clock
My colleagues are busy as bees
I'm jumping around like a frog

Calls are coming in
Emails are being received
I hear my colleagues typing
Away and furiously

I'm trying to find a direction
I'm trying to not get lost
However, there seems to be no progression
I'm panicking and in a twirl

Is this how it is like,
For an amateur?
Is this how the system bites?
Let's have an overture

Often Times

Often times,
One do not realise what they have until it is gone
Only to start lamenting the aftermath and
To frown

Often times,
People do not know how we really feel
Unless they landed in the same situation,
As we do

Often times,
The land is still standing
Even though it has been devastated
& left being a ruin

Often times,
The tree still stands tall and sturdy
Despite having gone through, a torrent of rain
And thunder

Often times,
We wish we could just give it all up
And lead a happier and simpler life
But we can't

These are but
The trials and tribulations of life

Untitled ...

This is hurting much more than I can bear
This is even worse than I thought

I just feel like curling up and cry
It seems it is better to just die

I'm feeling just too weary and tired at the moment
It seems I have lost the momentum

Chunks of work and more and more
This is not something I can handle, like before

Have to admit I need another assistant
But when to find one, is the main question!

Meanwhile, tensions fly high,
As I utter a big sigh

The fear of failure,
Of not living up to expectations

The fear of disappointment,
Of failing the corporation

The tremendous amount of pressure
Is not something you can relate to

In all of the above cases
Resembles a recipe for disaster!

Love Long Gone~

It's amazing how time flies
It's a wonder how we got by

I rejected your love for me that day
And I have regretted ever since

I love the way you talk
It resembles how I hold my fork

Your presence always fills me with much warmth
I'm so happy, I dun care if someone drops a bomb

You always comfort me
Whenever I'm feeling sad

You told me to take things easy
And not to feel bad

I missed those times
When we were together

The laughters we shared
The fun times we had

If I could turn back time
I would accept your love and walk down that path with you forever.

You Were There~

There were times when we feel neglected
by our loved ones

And there was no one for us to turn to;
for comfort

We feel hurt when we hear things
which hurt our feelings the most

When all seems down and hopeless
you were there

When I was down
you gave me comfort

When I was sad
you lent me your shoulder to cry on

When I was in despair
you guide me out of the darkness
and gave me a helping hand

You were there when I needed help
and with open arms
to me you stretched out

You pulled me out of the darkness
in my times of sadness and loneliness

With your constant comforting and assurance
I was brought back, standing on my feet

With these, I pray that our friendship never ends
And we will be friends till the end

You ...

I thought I had found my happiness
the first time I met you
I thought you would bring me joy
in whatever I do

Before I met you
my life was a complete mess
My world was upside down
with me, you wouldn't want to fess

But then, you came along
right into my path; my life
You helped build my confidence
and made me feel alive

Those times we had together
were the greatest I ever had
In all of my life
I didn't think I could get

But when tragedy strike
my world came tumbling down
You left me alone in this world
I thought I would surely drown

I was all by myself
I didn't know what to do
My world was a complete darkness
each day that passed were a blue

But slowly, I picked myself up
pick up the pieces left in my life
I told myself I could do it, do it for you
and that thought kept me alive

Thinking of that kept me on
and before I know it,
the misery was gone

I thank God for having let me met you
for showing me the beautiful things present
You opened my world to a world of sunshine
and made me feel I was not of a burden

I promise you I will carry on living
in remembrance of you
I will treasure my life fully
in whatever I do

What Is A Friend?

A Friend is someone you can be honest with
and likes you for who you are

A Friend is someone you can relate to
whether near or far

A Friend is one who helps you up
when you have fallen on the ground

And whose voice to you
is a welcome and soothing sound

A Friend is one who will try to comfort you
when you are sad
and never leave you all alone

A Friends will never cast you aside
and go off on his own

A Friend is one who will understand
and is always there to lend a helping hand

A Friend will be there no matter what happens
I'm glad we met and became friends!

What to Make of ...

It's a wonderful Christmas Day
A day supposedly filled with fun and laughter
A day of celebrations and getting together
A day of meeting old friends and relatives

We used to have so much fun
But those were the glorious days
The house filled with people and food
Laughter filling the whole place

I remembered the old Christmas carols
And the visits to the old folk's home
I remembered the games we played
So much fun and exclamations of the yesterdays

Of these few years,
Christmas hasbeen nothing but a cold, cold day
TV Blasting, Family sleeping
What to make of, of this fine holiday?

On My Bed ...

On my bed as I lay
I couldn't help but wonder why
How life can be so unfair
It makes me wanna curl up
And just cry

A Happy occasion
Well, it used to be'
Cept that for now
It's nothing but a memory

The parties, the drinks, the happiness
all that's left is nothing but an illusion
What's Christmas all about?
Can anyone tell me?

Life has been stale since 5 years ago
For me and my family
We are now living in a dream
A dream of the past

The past holds a lot of happy memories for us
The present, obstacles abounding
The future, unknown

What's left of today
Is being carried on for tomorrow
The pain is brought forward everyday
Who knows when it will be the end?

Will this be for a lifetime?
Will this be everlasting?
I certainly hope not
Really not...

To : My Sister

I pick up a pen
but my mind's a blank
A million things running through my head
as I lay on the bed

I recall the night when you were born
oh such wonderful joy!
You were is such tiny form
if only you were a boy!

But I thank God for you
for you never make our days blue
You are the joy of our life
for this I thank God, as each day passes through

You were a real 'monster' back then
in your growing up phase
You climbed up and down, everywhere
we could never find you in the same place!

You are a studious girl
one who needs no pushing, (at studies)
You excel in most of what you do
and we are very proud of you

Though we have been thru' a difficult time befor
ewe had managed to pull it thru'
We survived all the hurdles and obstacles
without turning too blue

I remembered when Daddy first fell hard
Life was a thud!
It was terrible back then
our lives were much twisted and bent

But we prayed hard
and our prayers were answered
Daddy got a new job
our prayers were heard

Although this is the second rough patch
we are going through
But I believe earnestly, if we are determined
we can make our dreams come true

Looking back,
I can't believe how much I've written
When just a while ago
I was still sitting away, contemplating what to say

Before I end this letter
I would like to say
Dear Anne-May
We love you always
And we will continue to do so everyday

No matter what happens
We will always be there by your side
We will comfort you when you are sad
Our family will not give up without a fight

You can count on our support
in whatever you do
No matter what your decisions may be
our wishes for you will forever be true

To : A Friend

When I first set my eyes on you
I found you to be warm and true
No longer do I feel blue
For everyone feels comfortable with you

You were the first to talk to me
and you introduced our classmates slowly
You were not shy around anybody
how I admire you really

You included me in all the talks
you tried to help me feel at ease
You gave me constant support
I needn't pay any fees

But as time goes by
our friendship was on the rocks
I'm sorry we had to cross that line
it seems we would never reach the docks

However, as most people do say
time will heal
You messaged me the following day
and asked me out for a meal

And so, we talked over lunch
we patched things up
As we talked, we munched,
we called this a truce

And so, all's well that ends well
I hope our friendship do last
As the waiter rings the bell
lunch hour has passed

Time Long Past

Everything about you was perfect
But now, all I feel is regret
How did I let you slip away?
Why did I reject your love that day?
Now, as I hear you talk about your crush
I feel my heart's being pierced into dust
I'm filled with envy for the girl
I only pray she cherishes what
you have done for her
If I could turn back time
I would accept your love without a dime
But now, it's too late
If it's meant to be
We would be together someday

Thank You

Thank you for listening to me
when I am sad

Thank you for being there for me
when I feel bad

Thank you for cheering me up
when I am down

Its as if my world is dark
without you around

Thank you for the advice and concern
you've given to me

Thank you for being my friend
and is always there standing so tall

Poem Of A Family

Once there was a happy family
who was happy no matter their status quo
Who had fun whenever they went
the little gal was still young then

She was pretty full of life and all
being an only child, enjoying all she's got
But then her father took the first fall
and suddenly, all their lives turned to naught

That was a time of difficulty
a time of pain and suffering
And along then came a friend
who promised to make it all better

The father started work in his friend's company
though totally new in this line
He learnt everything about what's to be
and he slowly made his way up

Soon this family was up on the ladder again
and the girl had a little sister
Who was the cutest thing anyone had known
and everybody loved

Life was going smoothly and wonderfully
it all seems too good to be true
This is like a dream come true
For the father and his family

Little did they know of the disaster
of what has yet to come
For this friend betrayed him
and forced him to leave the company

For a while, the father tried to accept things
to make everything right
For he still have a family to support
he cannot give up without a fight

But as despair set in
for finances were running low
The father grew despondent
unlike the person whom he really was

He tried getting a job
but nothing worked
He tried building his own business
but without capital, all is pretty much useless

In the end,
he had to sell away the car
That was the last link;
to sever him from his friend

With the last link gone
it seems all is gone
The father is feeling worse than before
but he is yet relieved as well

The father has been praying hard
hoping to make everything right like before
However, there has been no answer
and he doesn't know what to do

Will there be a miracle?
For this is what the family has been hoping for
Will God finally answer their prayers?
Time will eventually reveal!

Mother Theresa

Mother Theresa wanted to share
God's all abiding love and care
She knew there would be a way to let these feelings show
And she wanted everyone to know
So, she hugs whenever she goes
And urged people to do their part
To warm another's heart
A circle of her open arms
To hold in love and keep out harm
She helped the needy and the sick
And gave them love as well as their daily needs
Pitying the dying and homeless
She built a home
To bandage the abandoned and swath the alone
Now that she is gone
Many of us are torn
May we remember her forever
And forget her never

Just Remember

When all is down and hopeless,
andyou don't know who to turn to for help
When you need a helping hand,
whenyou feel your life's a total mess

When the world seems dark, without light,
andyou wish there would be one, to
Guide you out of the darkness
Just remember that I will always be here...

When you are miserable, unhappy or sad,
when you feel there's no meaning in life
When all you wanted was to find THAT someone to talk to
Just remember that I'll always be here...

When life's like a merry-go-round
threatening to throw you off-course
When life's like the spattering raindrops
which comes more often every now and then

When you feel the future is bleak,
& itis impossible to continue
the path down the road
Just remember that I'll always be here...